Aftershock

Left these cookies at Fort's dorm last night...

(photo courtesy of Sugar Stop)

Note: Naka-box siya nung iniwan ko sa guard haha

I had it made last Sunday. "Goodbye dignityyyyy", I told my friend. "Last na 'to ah", she said.

It was quarter to 10pm. Kinakabahan ako ng bongga pagkababa ng jeep sa Lacson hanggang sa paglakad papunta ng dorm nila.

I knew he's not there, (the wonders of social media --  stalking galore.) the nervousness comes from the idea that "I'm really doing this, wala nang bawian."

Big deal e noh haha. Well for someone who went through major self-esteem issues, it is. :)) Leaving gifts  at someone's place gives you that major fan label. If not "adik" or "stalker". Hehe

He thanked me this morning through this tweet. Surprise surprise, di lang pala ko yung nagbigay/nag-iwan. This is when it hurts, when you finally realize that you're just one of them girls. 

"Isipin mong mabuti kung anong mabuting nagagawa nito sayo.", Tep once said to me. 

Puyat ako lagi kakastalk.

Hindi na ko dapat nagpupuyat dahil bawal ma-late at nagiging unproductive lang sa work.

Finals week din namin ngayon, wala pang nasusubmit at puro Fort inaatupag ko.
Effort.
Gastos. 

But I was really happy.
And it makes everything worth it. Sometimes.

Perks of being a fangirl:
1. You're constantly kilig. Cute pictures, witty posts... haay
2. Para ka nading may boyfriend, sans clingy-ness and emotional drama.
3. May "love outlet". You know those moments when you just want to hug somebody, or shout to the world how much you love someone? (ako lang ba yun, weird ko ba? :/) I can always say "I love you Fortuna!" with matching halik sa picture niya just because. 

But the thing is, it's all i-m-a-ginaaary.
And something or someone can always prick your bubble and get you back to reality.

This is always the deal here right? 
You/I should always be reminded of our limits as a fan.
Just get enough for inspiration but not too much that it takes over your life.

Now I'm going back to reality first so I can also fulfill my other dreams.
Au revoir, Jeric Fortuna. This has been a lovely dream.

Taray fumefrench pa haha. Happy birthday on the 25th :)

♥,
Te