Getting It Bad

If I can pour my heart out on this post, I'll just type "I LOVE YOU JERIC FORTUNA" until the end. I already saw other girls saying this online and this is also true for myself: "Ngayon lang ako naging fan girl dahil sayo." Dahil sayo, Jeric Marco Fortuna. 

I believe that there are thin lines between fangirling, obsessing and just being plain crazy. And right about now, I'm not sure if I'm already bordering on the crazy side. So I actually sought for help.

(credits to Ms. Faye Favis' formspring account and thank you ma'am for answering my question.)

I know I'm not the only girl going through this. Pero bakit ganon Lord, why can't I be the one who's famous then tweets naman ng ibang tao yung di ko mapapansin sa sobrang dami? Or why can't I be one of those lucky people whom he's close with. Bakit di niya ko naging kapatid? Or at least kapit-bahay? Para naman di siya masyadong hard to reach.

Selfish questions. That's when I know I'm getting it bad.

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Just recently, a girl whose sister is diagnosed with Cancer asked him through Twitter if they (Jeric and her sister) can meet. These were his tweets: 

Read Tin Salonga's blog here.

No one would be heartless enough for that blog. I was crying when I finished it. 

Namamaga na sobra yung mata niya and I asked what’s up and she said “Talo sila Kuya Idol.” Makikita mo yung lungkot sa mukha at boses niya. She also added na “Last year na niya to. Ayokong malungkot idol ko. Kapag gumaling ako, pupuntahan ko siya sa UST tapos sasabihin ko sakanyang wag na siyang malungkot kasi sobrang galling niya para sakin.”

It also crossed my mind that this might not be legit, lalo pa ngayon na madami nang naglalabasang fan fiction involving the Growling Tigers. Nevertheless, I still pray that this is true -not the child having cancer, but with the child having hope to surpass her sickness because of Jeric Fortuna.

Nahiya ako bigla sa sarili ko. 

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Remember when older people told us, "Okay lang magka-crush, ok yan para ma-inspire ka." This is supposed to be the way for Fangirling. Just like what Tep said in the previous post, we fan girls dream. We stalk. We fantasize.

Maybe the obsession comes from dreaming that someday, the prince and I will end up together. Some fan girls actually did it. A famous example would be Lucy Torres Gomez, who believed in the law of attraction (everything your mind can conceive, you can achieve.) and is now happily married to her teenage dream.

But seriously, what are the chances? Kailangan ba mala-beauty queen ka muna? 

Reality bites. And when it bites, it tells you to wake up from your reverie and just be grateful of what you already have. I'm not saying that we have to stop being fans. I'm just saying we have to do this moderately. (Which is most likely a note to myself.) Hindi yung tipong naddown ka nalang forever tuwing di ka niya napapansin, or tuwing may ibang swerteng fan na nakapagpapicture nanaman sa kanya samantalang ikaw di mo parin siya makita ng personal. (Aray!) OR yung tipong wala nang ibang nagawa araw-araw kundi sumubaybay nalang sa whereabouts niya.

Being a fan is supposed to be liberating and inspiring - not obsessive and depressing.

So next time we realize that we're getting it bad, let's stop for a while, take deep breaths, and go for doing something that is more productive and beneficial for us. Fan girls shall forever be fan girls. And I guess our crushes and idols would appreciate it more if they inspired us to achieve this and that instead of loving them so much that it drives us crazy.


♥,
Te